Testimony of Greg Gash
As my life was slowly moving into a terrible downward spin and picking up steam as each day past. I found myself no longer able to control my thoughts. A major war was brewing with in me. My health was failing; my relationship with my wife was nothing like it was 9 years ago. We were slowly drifting apart. I knew she loved me, but as she would say over and over, we are only roommates. I was becoming more and more angry about our finances. Unable to control my thoughts, and even the littlest things would set me off. My body was breaking down. As parts of my body started to feel real pain, I knew that my sinful nature was killing my body.
I felt lost, embarrassed and full of shame. I would go to church with my family, pray and ask for forgiveness, only to start with my old self again and again. There was no foundation in my life, and I was finding myself not even able to ask for forgiveness, or should I say having the ability or the knowledge to turn back toward the God that pulled me from the depths of sin 28 years ago.
I really believe that God knows the hearts of his children, and mine was crying out very loud. Asking him to pull my life back together. About 8 weeks ago I was listing to Glenn Beck on my I-Pod, when I heard them talking about RiseUp, and how The First Hour was changing lives. I would have to say, that’s when God broke through to me. The first thing I did when I got home from work was to log in to RiseUp. I read about the First Hour, and ordered my books.
As I waited for them to arrive, the word circumcision just kept popping into my mind. Not knowing what this truly meant, I kept thinking to myself, I was already circumcised. When my book got here, I could not wait to start. It was like something was burning deep down within me, trying to set its self-free. As I started, I did not tell my family what I was doing. I knew that this was going to change the way I lived. As the first week went by, I started to feel free, yet I was struggling to find the courage to pray with my wife. As another week went by, my wife told me she was noticing the change in my life. At this point I knew God was transforming me from the inside out. I was calm; my thoughts became clear, my relationship with my wife and kids started to improve.
Then the word circumcision came to me again and again. I knew there was a bigger meaning to this. I was starting to hear God speak to me again. Years have gone by, since I have felt his presence so strongly in my spirit. I was be cleansed from the inside out. One night when I was spending some time with my beautiful wife, she asked me why I did not pray with her. She knew why I was getting up in the morning, yet I had no answer for her. As I went to my room, I heard God clearly tell me to get on my knees and pray. So I got on my knees and started to pray, and then my wife came and knelt beside me, and we prayed together, and have not stopped. The word circumcision was burning within me. So I started researching the true meaning. I knew deep down inside that God was trying to tell me something, and then He finally revealed it to me.
No, a true Jew is one whose heart is right with God. And true circumcision is not merely obeying the letter of the law; rather, it is a change of heart produced by God's Spirit. And a person with a changed heart seeks praise from God, not from people. My life has completely changed, my heart has been circumcised, and God has changed my life. He has brought me back, and has restored my family and most of all, my relationship with my wife. I thank God for Mark's obedient heart, for I don't really know where I would be today, if he chose not to listen to God as I once did. In Jesus name, may RiseUp transform this great Nation of ours? God Bless you and your family. Gregory Gash